Ugh. Welcome to PMS week. It's been a frustrating week of trying to watch what I'm eating, not giving a shit, and/or craving salt and chocolate. So far, I've done -decently- well, but it's hard to tell if the stats are as they are because I'm also bloating and retaining water or because I wasn't as strict as I probably should've been.
Probably a mixture of both.
Either way, I'm not going to let it stress me out too much. After a couple of months of going through the cycle, I'll be able to better judge what's me being a slackass and what's my body going "Hah you're a woman!!"
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
7/7
As per recommendation:
Stats on 6/30:
weight: 220.1
chest: 40.5
waist: 46.5
hips: 52.0
Stats on 7/7
weight: 220.4
chest: 41
hips: 52.5
waist: 46
Stats on 6/30:
weight: 220.1
chest: 40.5
waist: 46.5
hips: 52.0
Stats on 7/7
weight: 220.4
chest: 41
hips: 52.5
waist: 46
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
6/30 - Thoughts
I have gotten a fair amount of encouragement since I posted my measurements this morning. This actually surprised me, but it also made me realize that people were actually reading what I was writing -- and considering their own changes because of it. That's a powerful thought and it makes me feel more responsible. Therefore, I will try to write more and explain more of my processes.
Right now, I'm taking it one step at a time. Instead of "omg start dieting, start exercising, count calories" all at once, I have simply started to count calories. I write down what I eat as much as possible, and I try to stay within a 1600-1800 calorie range for a daily value. Today, I began using http://www.sparkpeople.com as a way to record what I'm eating. They have a nutrition tracker and a lot of other resources as well, including recipes, forums, groups and other such things to really help you on your journey.
Last week was 'rough' as far as my diet went. I 'cheated' a few times. Chips here. Soda there. But I *still* lost three pounds, and I still lost another half an inch off of most of my measurements. That's encouraging; it tells me that even if I sneak junkfood now and again, as long as I continue to try and keep my caloric goal in mind, I can still continue to lose weight.
Getting down to 220 pounds from 225 may not seem like a lot, but for me, it is. 220 is where I always seem to peter out and 'stop.' This time, however, I am feeling empowered. I am feeling encouraged. I feel loved. I know I need to take care of myself, not just for me, but because so many other people love me. Taking care of myself means eating the way I should.
The other big thing is Portion. Control. I can't stress this enough. When I first started this, I actually measured my cereal. My life cereal, for example, is a 3/4 cup serving. When you actually measure that out, you realize it's not that much. Just pouring cereal and going, I was eating more like 4-5 servings for breakfast.
Now, instead of pouring a big bowl of cereal, I use one of our smaller bowls. I know where the cereal should hit on the bowl for the serving size I've chosen, and I've added a 6oz serving of greek yogurt to breakfast as well. When school starts, I will probably try a few other recipes that I can make ahead of time that will give me a little more protein to get through the day. Luckily, Spark People has a -lot- of awesome recipes that look good for what I'm attempting.
A lot of publications stress exercise. You see it on reality shows. Exercise. It seems like all these people are exercising their weight off. What they show less of is the diet side of things. They don't show that these folks are also eating less than 1000 calories and still working their asses off. Calories are essentially what you're wanting to change first. You can burn calories by exercising, but if you're still eating 3000 calories, that 500 from walking isn't going to make a damned bit of difference.
That's why I decided to begin with changing my caloric intake. In two weeks, I've lost five pounds -from diet alone-. Imagine what it'll be like in the fall when I'm walking on campus and using the stairs (potentially three flights, sometimes) and so on. I'm actually looking forward to it.
Right now, I'm taking it one step at a time. Instead of "omg start dieting, start exercising, count calories" all at once, I have simply started to count calories. I write down what I eat as much as possible, and I try to stay within a 1600-1800 calorie range for a daily value. Today, I began using http://www.sparkpeople.com as a way to record what I'm eating. They have a nutrition tracker and a lot of other resources as well, including recipes, forums, groups and other such things to really help you on your journey.
Last week was 'rough' as far as my diet went. I 'cheated' a few times. Chips here. Soda there. But I *still* lost three pounds, and I still lost another half an inch off of most of my measurements. That's encouraging; it tells me that even if I sneak junkfood now and again, as long as I continue to try and keep my caloric goal in mind, I can still continue to lose weight.
Getting down to 220 pounds from 225 may not seem like a lot, but for me, it is. 220 is where I always seem to peter out and 'stop.' This time, however, I am feeling empowered. I am feeling encouraged. I feel loved. I know I need to take care of myself, not just for me, but because so many other people love me. Taking care of myself means eating the way I should.
The other big thing is Portion. Control. I can't stress this enough. When I first started this, I actually measured my cereal. My life cereal, for example, is a 3/4 cup serving. When you actually measure that out, you realize it's not that much. Just pouring cereal and going, I was eating more like 4-5 servings for breakfast.
Now, instead of pouring a big bowl of cereal, I use one of our smaller bowls. I know where the cereal should hit on the bowl for the serving size I've chosen, and I've added a 6oz serving of greek yogurt to breakfast as well. When school starts, I will probably try a few other recipes that I can make ahead of time that will give me a little more protein to get through the day. Luckily, Spark People has a -lot- of awesome recipes that look good for what I'm attempting.
A lot of publications stress exercise. You see it on reality shows. Exercise. It seems like all these people are exercising their weight off. What they show less of is the diet side of things. They don't show that these folks are also eating less than 1000 calories and still working their asses off. Calories are essentially what you're wanting to change first. You can burn calories by exercising, but if you're still eating 3000 calories, that 500 from walking isn't going to make a damned bit of difference.
That's why I decided to begin with changing my caloric intake. In two weeks, I've lost five pounds -from diet alone-. Imagine what it'll be like in the fall when I'm walking on campus and using the stairs (potentially three flights, sometimes) and so on. I'm actually looking forward to it.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Days like today are hard. I don't feel well. My throat hurts. My stomach hurts. And when I feel this way, I just want comfort food. I don't want to think about calories or whether I'm eating the right things, and I sure as hell don't want to cook tonight.
So far, I've done fairly well. I stuck to my proper breakfast versus eating icecream to soothe my throat. I'm relying on sheer stubborness to get me through the day.
So far, I've done fairly well. I stuck to my proper breakfast versus eating icecream to soothe my throat. I'm relying on sheer stubborness to get me through the day.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
So, I know what you're thinking. "Is this really going to work, Cee?" Yeah, I think it will this time.
I've struggled with weight most of my life. When I was in the 8th grade, I was 120 pounds and still felt overweight. I wasn't. I blossomed early while the other girls were still in their 90 pound bodies. So I've struggled with feeling like the 'big girl' for as long as I can remember.
After a while, that really messes with your self-esteem. Most of the time, I never went to school events (especially not dances), and it definitely has something to do with my anxiety. Having Bipolar, I don't need any other reason to be fighting my desire to be out in the public. I have plenty already.
I've been reaching breakthroughs in therapy. Now I need to reach a breakthrough in the way I view myself. I -am- important. I -am- special. And I am worth taking care of. If so many people love me, why am I sitting back and making excuses to continue on the way I have been?
No one is going to count those calories for me. No one is going to tell me what to eat and what not to eat. I'm 32 years old and those are my decisions to make. I have a choice, and I need to start making the right choices.
My goal is 2 pounds a week. I don't think that's a horrible goal to reach for. 2 pounds a week is a good chunk of change when you calculate it for a whole year. So, I'm not looking at an end number of where I want to be. Just two pounds a week to begin with. The real interesting part is going to be seeing how the inches and clothing sizes change.
I've struggled with weight most of my life. When I was in the 8th grade, I was 120 pounds and still felt overweight. I wasn't. I blossomed early while the other girls were still in their 90 pound bodies. So I've struggled with feeling like the 'big girl' for as long as I can remember.
After a while, that really messes with your self-esteem. Most of the time, I never went to school events (especially not dances), and it definitely has something to do with my anxiety. Having Bipolar, I don't need any other reason to be fighting my desire to be out in the public. I have plenty already.
I've been reaching breakthroughs in therapy. Now I need to reach a breakthrough in the way I view myself. I -am- important. I -am- special. And I am worth taking care of. If so many people love me, why am I sitting back and making excuses to continue on the way I have been?
No one is going to count those calories for me. No one is going to tell me what to eat and what not to eat. I'm 32 years old and those are my decisions to make. I have a choice, and I need to start making the right choices.
My goal is 2 pounds a week. I don't think that's a horrible goal to reach for. 2 pounds a week is a good chunk of change when you calculate it for a whole year. So, I'm not looking at an end number of where I want to be. Just two pounds a week to begin with. The real interesting part is going to be seeing how the inches and clothing sizes change.
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